Jason EganDoes Absence Make the Heart Grow Fonder?
October 21st 2008 07:57
It's been 2 months since my last post, did you miss me? Many things can happen within that time frame and for me, many things did! But firstly, many questions arise from my return. The main one is, do you care? Are you interested in my musings and lamentations on life, and what has happened to me personally? Is this an important outlet for a budding writer or should i just be putting all my energy into my next novel? I don't want to seem cynical, but am i wasting my time? As i am not sure of any of the answers of those questions, i will continue to post periodically until i get some sort of idea, one way or the other. Don't get me wrong, i enjoy writing to all degrees, but i am not quite sure if i should put my creativity into more fruitful endeavours. I have found myself a new job, one which requires much more of my time, and that is one reason why i am not sure about this. I fully enjoy the new job, but it is a job, not a career, and it has nothing to do with writing in any way, shape or form. I would like nothing more that to be able to afford to stay at home and fully utilise all the creative thoughts that swirl in my discontented mind. I'm not getting any younger and i want to fully delve into my psyche before it succumbs to Alzheimers or Dementia.
Something else that needs my time is the fact that i have recently become engaged. I thought after the act that things would remain the same, how naive was i? Asking my girlfriend to marry me, itself, was fraught with nerves and the struggle to make the moment memorable and romantic. But now i have opened a Pandora's Box of visits from her family who reside interstate. It's not too much of an issue, we all get along fine, it's just that they are very different to me! I have also excited my fiance to the point where her every waking moment is focused on the Wedding Day. That's all fine and dandy, but i guess i was just expecting a cooling off period. I am glad i have made her very happy and i hope it's because of the fact we are getting married and not just from the new 'rock' she has to show everyoneOf course, our lives are filled with change, some caused by our actions and others beyond our mortal control. I have made some decisions recently which will affect the rest of my life and i have no doubts they are the right ones.
Sure, it's a little scary yet exciting at the same time. To put it literarily, i have 'started a new chapter in my book of life.' It's a new direction, and i can only hope that it is up! Thanks for taking the time to read my blog, i hope it is worth the effort. Let's see where the new Chapter takes us.
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